[after 2 years apart and unspeaking]
because he made me healthy.
And because I was making food for someone who knew my bad habits, and casually made me eat with him.. We went out more for some meals, drank a LOT (totalled) over the last 5 months- not drunks, but sober people who regularly binge drank.
Point is, I just started my hormones again, and I can already feel belly fat creeping on. I’m terrified of gaining again. I’ve had a serious kidney infection (that placed me in the ER on Sunday) all week, and hardly eaten much, but I feel like I’m finally at a spot where I can reduce my eating enough to finally be thin again. I was barely thin for a month, before we got together and he made me happy and thick. Ugh. Just lost my job recently, soooo I dunno if I can afford a gym membership, but I’ll figure something out :c
ps: yes I am slipping back into ednos habits, no I don’t care, because I refuse to purge. It’s my straw of ‘health’ I’m clinging to.